Slack No More!

I am a student. I am an artist. I am a leader. In all, I am a student-artist-leader.

Being a student isn't much of a choice, when I look at it now. I have to get quality education to be able to achieve at least the practical things in life, with convenience. Being an artist... Well, I'm not the conventional artist you have in mind; not even the one I had in my mind! Being part of a media and production organization under the office that advocates culture and arts made me an artist in my own terms. As William Ernest Henley wrote in Invictus: "I am the master of my fate: I am the captain of my soul." Whether or not my student organization decided that I was leader material after all, I am a leader in more ways than one. In the end, they did decide that I could lead; so lead, I do try.

Given all those, I should at least be at my best always. Don't get me wrong, I try.

It frustrates me that I only realized how a slack I've become (thesis-wise) after my thesis group got approved on the first reading. Sure, it was all overwhelming at first. The happiness was like drugs, I tell you; not that I do drugs at all, haha! Anyway, the happiness, I think it sent useless fumes to my brain and told me to hold off everything about thesis. Time wasn't wasted at all anyway when I focused on my only class for the term. That went well, too, so it's all good. It's just so frustrating that we had a three-week (or so?) head start for research and all that paper stuff!

Now that the storm's gone (literally; goodbye, Juan and Katring), everything seems to be calming down. Things are falling into place, one by one, the way it always does! I just hope I don't let opportunity slip away again. Like what David said this afternoon: "When the opportunity's there, you just have to get it!"

So farewell, slacker vibes! Leave me be! Come to me, productivity!

Musings And More Musings

My legs are still sore from yesterday. It was such a long day! I went to: a meeting, a digital film screening, a lunch date and bonding with my guy best friend, an orientation for our office's sports fest, a celebratory bonding escapade with a few GMG, a theater decorum video shoot, a dinner date with an old friend and my other guy best friend, a meet up with a few course mates. There was so much walking around involved. I was dead tired when I got home.

And today, I wasn't able to sleep in like I usually do on weekends. I had to go wherever my family planned to go because they said so. Agghh. Dad had leather car seat covers customized, brother bought new shoes again. As form Mom, she wasn't much of a spender today, as well as I. Maybe we have other plans for tomorrow. Haha.

In line with yesterday and today's events, I muse:

• I missed Bru a whole damn lot. I got to see him for a couple of hours or so yesterday and of course, it was super bitin! More soon, I hope.
• Give me one day with the right set of people and I could rapidly kill a body organ.
• We never seek for anything that's already there because obviously, it's just simply there. But we never stop seeking for anything because maybe that's how we were made to function. How else is the act of seeking significant if we get satisfied with what's here and now? (I think I lost my train of thought after the first sentence of this soup-y bullet.)
• Over dinner, AJ, Laine, and I had a meaningful topic for conversation: How do you know that you really, really, really like somebody? Like, how can you gauge? Isn't it solely subjective? We all had different takes on the issue and we never found a conclusion to it. Maybe it shall be an open question forever. Or at least until we're sure about it anyway. Hmm, food for thought.
• My friend Tracy asked me last night how I was, after not being able to see each other regularly since she and almost everyone else already graduated: "Kamusta ka?" And I, "Uhm, okay lang. Just school-bahay. Haha! You?" She said, "Wala, steady. Uhm, work. So, love life?" And I, "Huh! Wala, boring nga eh!" And Tracy goes, "Kahit crush?" Me, "Eh... Wala talaga. I mean, like, meron pero walang balak. Walang plano." Then AJ chimed in, "Walang pag-asa?" And I go, "Yes! Exactly!" And Tracy wins the conversation with, "Ang meron lang tayo ay wala!" Actually, I just wanted to say how I think she's so right on so many aspects.

Weird and Cursed

Weird is good.

I think it's something that's common to everyone, having a weird trait. At the same time, the weird trait is what makes you unique; it's what sets you apart from everyone else. Your weirdness defines you.

I am proud to be weird in my own way. However, I think I might be cursed with a certain weirdness!

See, I rarely get sick. But when I do, it's usually because I get some decent and restful sleep. My body's used to getting too wired up and drained, undergoing all that fatigue. The past 48 hours had been physically, mentally, and emotionally draining. You name it. What's odd is that I actually had eight full hours of sleep for two consecutive nights. I should be more than regenerated to take on tasks I planned today. But no, my monthly red flag decided to chime in, probably, and now I wish I lacked rest.

The Care Bears

My Management Communication class group went through a ridiculously challenging ordeal. Joa, Lyns, Meryl, and I started working on a communication crisis case yesterday afternoon and emerged victorious after six long hours of online bonding. Random that I am, ooh, light bulb! Turns out, we had been working on the wrong crisis after all! We're back to square one.

Our minds were overworked, our bodies were drained, our eyes were strained. We called it a night and decided to start working at 6AM. And work, we did! By noon, we were ready with our statement, arguments, and excuses. We were also ready to reunite with beds for a power nap and grab a quick brunch. Oh, we were so drained.

Evening came and we were jittery but more than ready to present our communication crisis plan. The press and stakeholders group were great at grilling us. Personally, I think we did equally great at being the simulated professionals that we supposedly were: CEO, President, Corporate Communications Manager, Human Resources Head.

Just something to remember this day by, here's one for the team. Good job, Care Bears!

Oh, and by the way, I didn't know Care Bears gossiped that much. Hahaha. I love you!

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*Just wanna add!* I think I've gone through the entire emotional spectrum today that no particular emotion exists. I'm a somnambulist! Haha. But I still think the photo says it all. Hahahahaha.

Not[e] Worthy

As of this morning, Typhoon Megi (bagyong Juan in the local term) still hasn't let up. It's been raining since I woke up. See, I don't have any class today and I could very well choose to sleep in and revel in the cozy confines of my room in such a weather. But I have engagements: with groupmates for a class presentation; and with the office where my organization is under for the quarterly quality check. So instead of sleeping in, I had to wake up really early so I could cope with everything I need to accomplish today.

A note, like one in the photo below, indicating an early hour is a staple accessory in our household. I leave it on the dining table where my mom could easily see it. I know, I've heard about alarm clocks but is it my fault I'm such a heavy sleeper? Haha.

Sorry about looking wasted, I can't help it. I've had too many sleepless nights. Haha. And about my hair (I love how I let it dry without having to brush it)... Well let's just say that I hurried out of my pajamas before I completely go lazy and postpone my school responsibilities (doubt it, though). After a quick shower, five text messages said that classes were suspended by 11:20 AM, as CHED says 12:00 NN. Who knew I had to get back into my pajamas as fast as I had to hurry out of them.

The note was useless. I could have slept in, had I only known! *SIGH* Life goes on.

Champorado for lunch. How neat is that!

That Driving Force

I feel compelled to explain myself again, why I haven't posted a single entry since... Since... See, I can't even remember. And yes, I'm that lazy to even check. I just want this entry to be over with. I feel forced to write this entry because...

THIS IS SUCH A MEGA AWESOME DAY, OKAY!!!

For the past few weeks, I've been too occupied with school and everything else; what with my visiting relatives and best friend for life staying here at our home for three weeks, plus homework and readings from my only class for the term, a deadly kind of concentration and determination for a successful topic thesis proposal, and a heap of tasks for my extra-curricular activities, I'd be lucky to have energy and time to visit my blog.

As I have mentioned, I've been focused on thesis ever since my thesis group met with our mentor. After several visits to our prospective partner organization, consultations with our thesis mentor, and a number of working lunches with my thesismates/lunchmates (as I fondly call them), we have come to this day. I have to say, I expected for our proposal to be approved right off the bat. Our mentor said so, too. Hihi. Turns out, we had to defend our topic. I haven't slept enough since Monday and it hurts. (Emotionally and physically, motherhen.) And I've been trying to nurse this gradually increasing pain in my right eye. Migraine, anyone?

Anyway, fast forward to today, please. Ladies and gentlemen, the driving force behind this entry...

APPROVED!

Approvato, aprobada, genehmigt, approuve! It all translates to: HAPPINESS.

(Thanks to Meryl for the printscreen. I can do it myself but... See, I'm that lazy.)

So as I've said, we had to defend our topic. That happened at 1PM today. Guess what, we did well, probably. Uhm, no. MOST LIKELY. Haha! The moment we sat for defense, the Department Chair said, "I have no questions. I approved this." Huh! What is, I was sure we would get approved no matter what? Hahaha. Fine, I'm too sure of myself that it must hurt. But I was, and I guess I was right to have stuck with the conceit. Haha.

I wish for more bright sunlight and wonderful clouds. (Pun intended. Supertyphoon Megi is on its way to this part of my country. No, please, no. Gah.)