We all tried to make her go to rehab, but she said nothing else but: no, no, no.
I'm all excited, watching the Philippine (football team) Azkals vie for a spot for the next FIFA World Cup. As I always do, I tweet my every reaction and observation. And then I saw a number of tweets with "Amy Winehouse" and "RIP" in the same Twitter entry. So I look up if it's true because I just can't ignore how my heart is breaking, and it's true!
(Not much details here, yet. It's just the first entry I saw about the death on Google.)
I can't deny that I never saw this coming. What with all the to-and-from-rehab headlines and forgetting-the-lyrics-to-her-own-songs-at-concerts episodes, we all knew she'd go early. I just didn't think she'd die at 27 years of age. I think she saw her death coming, though. Her recent forgot-the-words episodes during her Euro-tour concerts are evidence enough that she's been using and abusing way too much.
Oh, God. My heart can't stop crying. I was washing the dishes earlier and the last song that my iPod played was Valerie, come on. Oh, Amy. So young! Her death broke my heart but she will be forever in it, as soon as it's fixed.
Title inspired by Haley Reinhart's performance of I Who Have Nothing. Speaking of the song, I think it's her best performance ever on Idol, where Benny and the Jets gets bumped down to the second spot! I can't wait for her album to come out! I'm not saying she's already signed contracts and stuff but I'm confident that she'll be signing with a label sooner or later anyway, so I'll just carry on and suppress my heartbreak. Haha.
It took me about 10 seconds to accept realize that Haley won't be in the American Idol Season 10 finals. Haley Reinhart is real, raw, and organic talent! Hit me up if you know of someone who has the same raspy voice, amazing register, and remarkable personality rolled into one, and I shall reconsider my statement, and this entire entry.
Maybe she's too good for American Idol. Haha. Just like Casey Abrams and Pia Toscano. Looking at it, American Idol's best season *ever* will end in a blah country showdown, and this is me having nothing against Lauren Alaina and Scotty McCreery. Just saying.
Anyway. Here are my favorite performances of Haley America's Biggest Regret Reinhart:
I Who Have Nothing - BEST. PERFORMANCE. EVER. Vocals, arrangement, everything. Come on!
House of the Rising Sun - This gave me goosebumps all over my body!
Benny and the Jets - Tell me she ain't got no spunk and I'ma smack yo' head. Juzkiddin. But seriously, WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU, AMERICA? Hahaha.
You And I - She might as well make it her own. The fact that Gaga hasn't released this yet at the time of the performance, Haley definitely owned it. And the judges were probably too dumb to see it. Haha.
Moanin' - Duet with Casey Abrams. The scathing and growling combination was like bombing Hiroshima and Nagasaki from the World War II combined! Okay, maybe not to you, but it is to me!
*sigh*
What a waste. Then again, Haley Reinhart will have a soarin' music career.
You know when a girl has this time of the month that the red flag is raised? Based on observation, hearsay, and experience, that's when the girl becomes too emotional and sensitive over the smallest things. Well, my hormones must be running wild! See, I recently finished that part of the cycle, okay TMI, but I can't get any more ridiculous today!
I stayed home all day, partly because I had no business in school or elsewhere. I was drained from yesterday, too. But for the most part, I was (still am) scared to bits about the recent bus bombing incident at Ayala Ave. So I stayed in my pajamas, had n bowls of cereals, and watched newly downloaded movies.
Emotions On Overdrive (EOO) Symptom # 1:
I laughed too much while watching Easy A. Well, props, if it really was that funny. I loved it! Also, I got too excited about Olive's wit and the whole wordplay thing going on. I felt so down for her when things got really messed up. Like, come on, Cee. What up?
EOO Symptom # 2:
I cried over a random scene in Across the Universe when the movie barely started laying out its plot. I thought I recovered well when I began to sing with the cast to the tunes of The Beatles. No, bad recovery, even. I bawled my eyes out some more during Jude and Lucy's forcied means of separation.
While enjoying my movie-watching, Mom alerts me about an incident in one of the residential condominiums currently under construction at Paseo de Roxas. Construction workers were killed from a gondola fall of almost 30 floors.
EOO Symptom # 3:
Add to the fact that the recent incident was spine-tingling, I can't believe I got goosebumps all over my body. I can't help but be all jumpy and jittery at the smallest things. Makati City has been the hot spot for bad news lately.
Last year's season of American Idol bored me. After the new set of judges for American Idol 10, though, I got myself quite hooked again. Plus, I expected that talents were running low, so I felt rejuvenated to see that this year, a lot of hopefuls can still bring it! Take Chris Medina from the Wisconsin auditions.
EOO Symptom # 4:
Come on. It's not only his tragic story, which I think will be bashed by haters very soon; say a couple of hours. He sang the most beautiful of all songs in my life's soundtrack. He sang it really well with his own twist. I'm the The Script was proud of him. And how can I not shed a tear when he said, "What kind of guy would I be if I walked out when she needed me the most?" I hope men in all forms and walks of life were listening.
Today is my Lola Gloria's second death anniversary. The photo above was one of the last photos I've had with my Lola when we came home to Davao for Christmas, year 2007.
It was unfortunate that she had to pass right before my brother's 14th birthday. Everything that year (2008) had been a blur after her death. I grew up with my Lola living with us; all seventeen years of my life. It was hard enough to leave and let go when my family had to move to Manila (for everyone's convenience.) How difficult it was to have to go through not saying a proper goodbye to Lola before she passed was beyond words. A lot of things changed after that; things about me, about the family, and even my perspective. I can't say it was for the better or worse, just that her death entailed a lot of changes.
It has been two years now. I am astounded at how it seems like ages ago when the feelings inside my chest make it seem so recent. I know that my Lola is in a wonderful, happy, and peaceful place now. She had a life well lived, surrounded by love from her ever so loving husband, Lolo Pons; from her children, all eight of them; from her grandchildren; and great grandchildren.
An entry to pay tribute to her may never be enough for her loving kindness and light disposition in every aspect of life.
I miss you so much, Lola! Please continue to be with us and guide us always just like the way you did before. I love you!
