Revelations

Half of my day was wasted on oversleeping just like any other weekend morning; what's new? I drag myself to school because of org responsibilities; what's new?

What is new, really?

I talked to a friend this afternoon and I found out something. Well, a lot of things. But that one thing got my eyebrows raised involuntarily. I'm glad that he told me. I'm touched as well, because amidst all the shiz that's been happening to me lately, it flatters me that I am one that can be trusted. I was told that out of all the (very few) people who came to mind, I was the one he could trust. And I'd have to say, he didn't make the wrong choice. I'm glad I got to talk to him; it was more like I'm glad he talked to me about it.

I found out that someone has been hating on me and a few others who are dear to me. Just because you don't like who you're working with doesn't mean you have the license to make their workload feel like hell. It's bad enough that you don't cooperate, it's worse that you don't make an effort at all. The worst part is, you do it on purpose because of a really shallow reason. I hate how you put on a mask of a damn smile whenever I see you because I know that behind that mask is a scowl so bad I wanna rip your face off. (Haha, too graphic.) No, really, don't make it look like I don't know shiz cos I do. I'm not stupid and you know it. Unless you make more wrong decisions and make a fool of yourself in the long run, let's see who surfaces as stupid.

Another person has been talking shiz behind my back (huh?) and I'm not even surprised. Not that I'm someone famous or interesting or whatever that people talk about. That's exactly why I'm irked and unresponsive at the same time. I am a nobody! I am a nobody except in one aspect: the organization. I am not one who abuses power when I have it, but I do know how to make power work. You've served in your own time and now I do things the way I believe would be for the better. Don't go thinking that I decide just because I want it my way. Do think that I have a band of minds working with me (of which the second person of this entry is not a part of, in any way) and we have thought about processes long and hard before we implement them. So don't go sticking your nose in someone else's shiz cos I guarantee you that if you don't stop, it will get dirty.

I've always said that hate is such a big word and it deserves to be associated with nothing else but crap. So pardon the next statement: I hate this entry. There's just so much hate. Like, try 2 of 3 topics? Haha. I might delete this entry when the time comes that I can't take the crappiness of this any longer. But for now, I'm glad that I word-vomited because I feel a lot better. :)